Gratitude...

Three years went rather fast....a lot of things happened and i met many beautiful people and good friends/colleagues and yet just like any other parts of a story, this chapter of my life officially ended today. I wanted to give my appreciation to those who gave my stay at the company a memorable one and this is the least i can do. A BIG thank you to the supervisors i had who supported me, listened to me and showed appreciation to my efforts (you know who you guys are). I wasn't really a "Saint" at work, I talked back to "some" of my superiors, somehow guilty of not giving them good stats at times and even showed attitude too....I'm really sorry but I took the chance I was given (which I am very thankful of) and I won't forget my experiences. It's been a very colorful chapter of my life's story, many ups and downs, many unforgettable conversations, arguments and laughters that still even resound in my head. I've been really busy lately but i took this moment to lay these things down while they are still fresh and while i still have the gusto to let it out :)

To my dearest friends who listened to my stories that are sometimes even repeated, who comforted me and shared with my joys and supported me with my decisions, who made me laugh and sometimes cry out of laughter....thank you guys, I got a long list :) And to those who didn't like me and still don't like me, CONGRATULATIONS you won't see me again but your life won't be the same anymore, damn I'm not there to make your day "MISERABLE"!!!! ***evil laugh*** I'm sure many will miss my red lips (lmao)! Oh! I'm gonna miss the PCM's, SCM's and AU's too and even the persistent TP's, especially those who say "I'm not a happy camper" right at the start of the call!!haha...

I still love Chase!!! and i'm doing its slogan, Chasing what matters!!!!

Thank you everyone!!! See you when I see you :) Hasta la vista!!!

Even Just For Christmas

In just a few hours the world will be filled with exchanged greetings and wishes, fireworks, parties, Noche Buenas (though not for all) and well, people who are at work though they wish they aren't -just like myself, my Dodong Owen and my Fabrice. In over five years that I've been working in a contact center I have almost "always" spent Christmas at the office, I'm not saying there's something wrong with that...just that I wish I can spend it at home with the family, all happy and filled with love and peace. There were a few Christmases like that since I've grown up, yes just a few!

I remember back then when i was a little girl...Mama would always be busy preparing for food, no matter how hard it was to earn she had always made sure there will be a Noche Buena to be shared for Christmas Eve. Nanay was still with us, I still didn't know how "unfair" life can be. Even if Papa has already been in bed I still felt like "we're all happy". Then I grow up.

I don't want to sound unfair and so negative, just a little nostalgic. There are MANY things and blessings to thank for. Change is just being itself, so constant. I can't help but feel the longings of those who i wish can be around or can still be around for a celebration.

It's the second Christmas without Nanay and many years since I have spent Christmas with Titing....oh how i miss that brother!!!!!! Dodong and Fabrice are not here either...mais, c'est la vie.

Sometimes I think of Santa and my wish list:

Even just for Christmas I wish Papa can be healthy again.

Even just for Christmas I wish all my brothers and my sister can be around without any issues.

Even just for Christmas....

I am looking forward for better years with more blessings of good health, love, peace and harmony in the family. Thank God for ALL the countless blessings, the love of the people who care for me and the love i have for them is more than enough to thank for.

Though this Christmas won't be one of those joyfully celebrated Christmases for me and for those who are like me, I wish with all my heart that those who are lucky enough to spend this with their loved ones will enjoy it to the fullest. Even if i'll be at work, in my heart I am joyful because of the gift of good health, love and peace for me, my love ones and good friends.

A very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all! May the blessings be shared with the needy...a healing for those who are in pain, a comfort for those who experience loss, peace for those at war, faith for those in doubt, guidance for those who are lost and strength for those who had tragedies. God bless us.

Tᴡᴇɴᴛʏ-Sɪx Yᴇᴀʀs ᴀɴᴅ Wʜᴏ's Cᴏᴜɴᴛɪɴɢ?

Thank God for best friends!!!

I just had my 26th birthday last Monday, the 13th of September. It's been twenty-six years after Mama had that painful yet rewarding (4th) labor pain and the risk of her own life for the life of her daughter. Since then she continued her love, support, care and understanding and she is continuing to touch my life and to help me in becoming a better person. She's the sweetest person ever, the best mother of course and for us -her children- she's the epitome of "kindness".   Despite the distance and time constraint she really came to the city from the countryside just to be with me on my birthday and to cook her "rice cake" and best "bam-i" ever!!! I was very touched, and my younger brother really came here from work down south of Cebu as well.

My birthday don't fall on a "pay-day" so there was an issue with the budget but my family doesn't care about the money, we know how to have fun and enjoy the moment with what we have. My nieces and nephew told me not to be sad even without much money and they did their effort to make us all laugh the night before my birthday with all their dance moves and their funny-innocent lines.

My man, though far away, did make a very touching effort too by sabotaging my best-friend and my brother with his surprise gifts of bouquet and chocolates. These simple things touched me a lot. I hope I have touched their lives the way they did with mine. Life is beautiful if we see it in a much simpler manner and if we get to appreciate even the simplest form of kindness and value that our loved ones do to us.

I miss the presence of Fabrice, Papa, Mama Lena, Titing and Nanay...I wish we could have celebrated it all together but this wish is already beyond possible, life could never be perfect but I know that no matter where they are they remember and they also wished to be with me, I'm sure they love me and knowing that is already enough to make me happy.

 I am grateful too, to all of my friends who took the time to sincerely send me their wishes. Thank God for the gift of life and for giving me such loving people around me. My happiness is beyond words...seeing the smiles at home, hearing my man's voice, knowing that I am valued and loved feels so good and very touching.

It's been twenty-six years and I'm still trying my best in becoming a good person to serve God's purpose of giving me this life. I don't get to have a "simple" or "easy" life like most of my friends do. There had been a lot of serious trials I had to pass to get to this point where I can look back, sigh and say I made it. I never thought I could still smile after all those years. Growing up with Papa being in bed and seeing Mama trying to feed us and keep us on the right track at the same time, begging and seeking help from other people to survive and to finish school was not a joke but I was not alone all the way. I don't have the capacity to understand His will and His plans but I have to trust Him, otherwise I would fall again.

Things are doing "well" now, NOT PERFECT but GOOD ENOUGH to be thankful of. I have a loving family, I have a faithful, kind, true and loving boyfriend, I have enough good friends, I have a job to sustain my needs. Me and my loved ones have good health and I am slowly regaining my faith. I don't have the luxuries but I have enough to thank for.

With my Super Mama and pretty nieces!!!