In just a few hours the world will be filled with exchanged greetings and wishes, fireworks, parties, Noche Buenas (though not for all) and well, people who are at work though they wish they aren't -just like myself, my Dodong Owen and my Fabrice. In over five years that I've been working in a contact center I have almost "always" spent Christmas at the office, I'm not saying there's something wrong with that...just that I wish I can spend it at home with the family, all happy and filled with love and peace. There were a few Christmases like that since I've grown up, yes just a few!
I remember back then when i was a little girl...Mama would always be busy preparing for food, no matter how hard it was to earn she had always made sure there will be a Noche Buena to be shared for Christmas Eve. Nanay was still with us, I still didn't know how "unfair" life can be. Even if Papa has already been in bed I still felt like "we're all happy". Then I grow up.
I don't want to sound unfair and so negative, just a little nostalgic. There are MANY things and blessings to thank for. Change is just being itself, so constant. I can't help but feel the longings of those who i wish can be around or can still be around for a celebration.
It's the second Christmas without Nanay and many years since I have spent Christmas with Titing....oh how i miss that brother!!!!!! Dodong and Fabrice are not here either...mais, c'est la vie.
Sometimes I think of Santa and my wish list:
Even just for Christmas I wish Papa can be healthy again.
Even just for Christmas I wish all my brothers and my sister can be around without any issues.
Even just for Christmas....
I am looking forward for better years with more blessings of good health, love, peace and harmony in the family. Thank God for ALL the countless blessings, the love of the people who care for me and the love i have for them is more than enough to thank for.
Though this Christmas won't be one of those joyfully celebrated Christmases for me and for those who are like me, I wish with all my heart that those who are lucky enough to spend this with their loved ones will enjoy it to the fullest. Even if i'll be at work, in my heart I am joyful because of the gift of good health, love and peace for me, my love ones and good friends.
A very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all! May the blessings be shared with the needy...a healing for those who are in pain, a comfort for those who experience loss, peace for those at war, faith for those in doubt, guidance for those who are lost and strength for those who had tragedies. God bless us.
